{"id":25664,"date":"2013-12-19T20:30:50","date_gmt":"2013-12-20T02:30:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/deafnetwork.com\/wordpress\/?p=25664"},"modified":"2013-12-19T20:30:50","modified_gmt":"2013-12-20T02:30:50","slug":"quiet-beauty-of-the-season","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/deafnetwork.com\/wordpress\/blog\/2013\/12\/19\/quiet-beauty-of-the-season\/","title":{"rendered":"Quiet Beauty of the Season"},"content":{"rendered":"

\n\tQuiet Beauty of the Season<\/strong>
\n<\/h2>\n

\n\tDecember 2, 2013<\/span>\n<\/p>\n

\n\tBy Brian Patrick Jensen\n<\/p>\n

\n\tChild on the Mall\n<\/p>\n

\n\tIt’s the week before Christmas on the local mall at the height of holiday buy-season. It is late—near closing, which is 11pm. Of course, the storefronts are adorned to the max in festive holiday décor. The opulent commercialism doesn’t bother me a bit.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tIt felt childlike cool in those last shopping-minutes to be among the few remaining stragglers in a vast Holiday Wonderland—kind of like having a whole amusement park all to myself!  I smiled as I pondered that one and my holiday cheer rang up a notch. Just another reason to love Christmas—even at 50 years old, I can still feel like a child on the mall. And so I did.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tThat’s why The Sadness stunned me off guard.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tThe Sadness\n<\/p>\n

\n\tIt happened as I browsed the shelves in the Hallmark store inspecting the greeting card selections. Shopping the elegant assortments, I chance on a nondescript carton of two-color prints with plain white envelopes and no glitter. I was not impressed. Still, I casually glance at the “Inside Message” stamped on the back of the box.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tI read the simple inscription and know at once it is meant for me. The Sadness suddenly grips me with a vengeance.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tLet’s see, what does the greeting say? I read the simple inscription and I know at once that it is meant for me. I pause, blink and read it again. The Sadness suddenly grips me with a vengeance.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tI know The Sadness well.  But I have been doing good with it and it doesn’t come much anymore. Rare when it does, I feel it welling up and it is fleeting.  Never has it been this intense without warning.  So there is no chance holding back.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tThe child within leaves me. And the man I am weeps. These are tears meant for adults only.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tI face the wall; bow my head in my hands; and weep quietly (I hope), surrounded by cartons of Christmas cards alone in the back of the Hallmark store.  The child within leaves me. And the man I am weeps. These are tears meant for adults only.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tSecond Soundless Christmas\n<\/p>\n

\n\tThe allure of the holidays plays positive on every human sense—brilliant ornaments, sparking wines, fragrant candles, lavish banquets and precious gifts; love and peace; and the awe of God Himself—and rejoicing all of these wonders with the beautiful sound of music.  If it is true, as they say, that Angels in Heaven sing, surely it is Christmas carols!\n<\/p>\n

\n\tIf it is true that Angels in Heaven sing, surely it is Christmas carols!\n<\/p>\n

\n\tThis is my second deaf Christmas.* I have never been more grateful that Its joyous sound pealed glorious every wonderful year of my life, except in the last two. I hear no music now and I miss it awful.  It’s even more difficult this year because I have forgotten the sound of the sound. I know the lyrics to Silent Night, but I can’t play the tune in my head anymore. I can recite every precious lyric but the melody is strangely unknown to me.  Last Christmas, I knew it. But now I can’t remember.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tAnd now I discover that it haunts me most at Christmas.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tLosing the memory of beautiful sounds is the most peculiar development since my deaf adventure began. And now I discover in a Hallmark store that it haunts me most at Christmas.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tBack at the Store\n<\/p>\n

\n\tThe mall closes in 11 minutes.  I am the only patron in the Hallmark store. I swallow hard and wipe my face with the cuff of my jacket. But my eyes stay teary-red. I could tell she noticed, but the lady at the cash register pretended not. People don’t know what to say when they see a grown man cry.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tNot to mention that this poor lady looked pretty holiday-beaten herself. I can tell she just wants my sorry soul out of there. Bah, humbug! So without a merry word between us, I purchase a box of the bargain-budget greeting cards and hurry out of the store.\n<\/p>\n

\n\t“Looks nice” I whisper.  And it did!\n<\/p>\n

\n\tThe mall is nearly empty now. Store gates are half-mast or locked down firm. The security guy roams the gallery shooing the few remaining patrons to the nearest exits.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tMy car is parked all the way at the other end of the complex. I trudge there slowly glancing at the holiday décor as I go. Looks nice, I whisper\n<\/p>\n

\n\tMarch of Christmas Castle\n<\/p>\n

\n\tAnd it really did!\n<\/p>\n

\n\tTall pines lined the gallery floor adorned in crimson and gold. Huge crystal snowflakes glisten from the rafters.  Angelic statues seem to smile at me as I pass.  Hundreds of vivid-red poinsettias greet me at every turn. My moist eyes twinkled back at the infinite sparkle of Christmas lights every step of the merry way. \n<\/p>\n

\n\tI need to cheer myself up. That’s what I need. I look around the festive mall and I see no one. I imagine not a soul is there. Just me. I pretend for one brief shining moment that I had just marched through the grand halls of a Christmas Castle that was mine alone.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tI mumble to myself that’ I’m going nuts and chuckle at my whimsy.  Still, the walk—real and imaginary—did me good. My heart warms a bit and I feel better.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tAll the Quiet Beauty\n<\/p>\n

\n\tNow at the exit, I look back across the gallery. Every fixture in the building is still on high beam. I hear precisely nothing in the peaceful stillness as the ceiling lights shine on all the quiet beauty of the season that God graced my eyes to see tonight! Looks awesome, I whisper. And it really did!\n<\/p>\n

\n\tI reach for my box of greeting cards and I again read the missive. This time I smile.  I read it again. I smile more. The child in me returns; I exit the mall and go home.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tThis year my Christmas card greeting prays the following to my loved ones, friends and you:\n<\/p>\n

\n\tWishing you all the quiet beauty of the season.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tIndeed I do.\n<\/p>\n

\n\tMerry Christmas!  \n<\/p>\n

\n\tLove, Brian\n<\/p>\n

\n\tSOURCE:\n<\/p>\n

\n\thttp:\/\/www.brianpatrickjensen.com\/quiet-beauty-season\/<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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